Paycheck Over Dreams
Would you choose to follow your dream or choose stability?
I’ve been wondering about this for a few weeks now. Is it better to choose stability over your dream? I’ve been working for almost three years now in a job that I’m not even sure of what it is. (It is a decent job though.) I am stuck in an office for 10 hours a day, staring at the computer and I just can’t help but think, is this really the life I am meant for? is this the only life I can live? I know this problem sounds cliched. If I don’t like it then I’ll look for another job. Believe me, I thought about it a million times, if not all the time. But what’s really holding me back is the pay that I get from sitting my ass here in this office. The pay is really, really good and I can’t settle for any lesser than this since my whole family is depending on me. I am the only one in my family that has a job, hence, all the bills, groceries and all other shit that requires money are all shouldered by me. So, in the situation I am in, my job is basically the only reason why we still have food in our table. But the real question is, will this be enough? Is this all I could do? I feel like I am meant to do something more than this.
So, aside from the pay, there is absolutely nothing good about this place. I don’t have medical insurance, my bosses don’t know the meaning of professionalism and respect, and there is absolutely no room for growth and promotion. We are forever gonna be just employees, nothing more, nothing less.My bosses are foreigners and they think that all the higher positions can and should only be filled by people like them. It’s kind of frustrating because it’s like no matter how hard I work, I know I will only be just that girl on the desk.
So, should I choose my paycheck over my happiness? Or take a risk, be bold, break free from this prison-like desk? I guess, I’ll never know till I pick one then.
